Fieeazielia.

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carrotbun:

i choose you, pikachu!!! :3

carrotbun:

i choose you, pikachu!!! :3

You strangle me when I’m with you . You strangle me when I’m without you. And I’m pretty much sick and tired of you. I don’t wanna see your name coming up on my phone. I don’t wanna be a part of your life. I wanna waste the last few months of what we had together, cause we didn’t have a thing. Only because we both didn’t feel a thing.

I wanna leave you, your life. I’ve had enough of sacrificing for someone who doesn’t appreciate my sacrifices. Doesn’t get that I’m trying hard to do what’s best. I’m tired of waiting, tired of holding on.

I don’t wanna be with you just because you’re afraid of being lonely. You’ll be fine, and I will be fine. Going our separate ways. What’s love when it’s not appreciated? This is.

I’ll break the news to you soon. But for now, I’m slowly making the right decisions for myself. And no longer am I thinking of you.

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No longer am I strangled by your control, no longer am I unable to do what I’ve always yearned to do. Everything I can do now, is because I’m without you.

Yes, you. You were the rope around my neck, twisting and pulling, tighter and tighter every minute. Depriving me of air, depriving me of life. And now, I’m free.

— Ellefiee Azielia Dawson , xoxo

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It drives me crazy how life can be so perfect one moment, and so imperfect the next. How it’s so simple and yet it’s so complicated. How one can be so happy and in love one moment, and so cold and unfeeling the next. Life is so contradicting. And even though we think we may know everything about life ; what’s coming around the corner, we’re lying to ourselves. No matter how hard we try to make life the way we want it to be, the way we think is right, we never will be able to. And I’m exceedingly guilty of this crime.

I headed to Changi today, on my own. And I sat on the beach, with nothing else but the sound of laughter, and the waves, and of course the music from my iphone playing in my ears. And I finally let myself enjoy the feeling of freedom, and the feeling of the wind in my hair. No longer do I feel cooped up, alone, and strangled. Free, to be where I wanna be, do what I wanna do. I was finally happy. No, I don’t feel emptiness. I feel more whole now, then I ever will be.

And it took me so many people to ask for help, when I could have just turned to God for advice. When I did, everything seemed much clearer. He’ll guide me from now onwards . No more of me and my selfish decisions.

— Ellefiee Azielia Dawson , xoxo